We're All Mad Down Here, Dear

First genuinely good night I’ve had in some time

The first night I’ve legitimately enjoyed of its own merits, and not just for the sake of a distraction in the better part of a month or two.   I ended up getting picked up by some friends(so yay not having to sober up and drive) hit a few bars, got drunk for the fun social reasons and not the more worrisome of them, then ended up at our friend’s club salsa dancing all night.  After that I ended up at an old friend’s house.  Gotta love living on Lakeshore Blvd. Always got beach clubs.  So we ended up catching up during a party, then grabbed a few blankets and chilled by the lakefront for a while just bullshitting until morning rolled through. Crashed about 7 or 8.

I truly needed that.  Other funny thing about last night.  It felt wonky because two people gleamed more about whats been up lately.  The term secondary friend seems so degrading, but that’s essentially what they are.  For example, my friend Nika, whom I love absolutely to death.  I say secondary only because she isn’t one of the people who I go to for problems.  I hang out with Nika to party and watch Dr Who and geek out, not an emotional lean-to.  Out of no where, middle of a dance, she looks at me and goes “Somethings not right kohdpetka(think it’s the Russian equivalent for sweetie if memory serves)”  So she grabs drinks and side bars me and basically browbeats me in her own adorable way,cause it’s impossible for this girl to be threatening, until I fill her in.  I’ve had a conversation with her that I havent had with three of my four best friends purely based on her read of me.  Feels weird, in a way I can’t quite put my finger on.  Guess with everything up I’m sorta taking stock of my friendships. Trying to sort if everyone I’d go to the wall for would do the same for me.  It’s kind of a semi-annual purging. Or maybe I should stop looking a Russian gift horse in the mouth and just enjoy that one of my friends cared about me enough, and not use it as a litmus test for everyone else.   Meh, who knows, eitherway, I’m actually smiling today, legitimately.

Gonna head out and do some sparing then get my evening sorted. :)

-Rant over